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Think-About Thursday 08-12-10

"Everything is (going to be) okay."

How often do you hear these words?

How often do you say them?

How often do you believe them?

As someone with severe anxiety I say this phrase to myself several times a day without even realizing it.  I start almost every morning getting out of bed with a quick pulse, a slight feeling of doom, and the words "everything is okay" mumbling out of my mouth. (yes, I said slight feeling of doom, b/c DOOM has various degrees in my world.)

My husband will say "everything is fine" or "you're fine, everything is okay, stop worrying" at least a few times a week. He really is so incredibly patient with my psychosis. 

While I always "know" that the statement is true, I don't always believe it. Whether it'd mid panic attack, or the first few times I said, or someone said them to me last week after I lost my job... I know it's right, b/c let's face it, everything HAS to be okay, and so it will be. My friend Sara reminded me of that very thing today. She didn't try to sugar coat anything. She said, " calm down, have some tea, everything will be okay, it has to be, so it will be"

That immediately set me at ease. I don't know why, but for the first time in ages I actually believed it when I heard/read it. I took that moment to say, "You're right. Everything IS okay, I WILL be fine."

I marched into my interview today, head held high, palms sweaty, but I did not stutter, I did not hesitate and I had no fear. No matter what the outcome, it didn't matter, everything would be okay.

It was almost like a lucid dream. I couldn't control how others around me acted, but I could control myself and my actions and for a few minutes anyway, my emotions.

It felt good. 

So, for those of you who are out there and are struggling, or in fear, let me tell you that I believe this with my heart and soul, WE will okay. Everything WILL be okay. Life is good. It's not boring, it's complicated, it's hard, and a struggle, but we don't have to be afraid. 

I'm sure this feeling will be short lived, but that's okay too. That's why I'm writing about it, so that I can come back and read this and remember what it felt like to be anxiety free for a few hours. 

When was the last time you said "Everything will be okay."? 

Did you mean it?

Work Search Wednesday 8-11-10

Like the new twist? I thought so. I have not worked out this week. I have however spent quite a bit of time looking for a new job.
I have an interview tomorrow at a local museum and an interview on Monday at a well known, high end bridal boutique. I'm excited about both opportunities.

I got my eyebrows threaded today in preperation. That deserves it's own post though.

The story of the disgruntled flight attendant really hit home and highlighted how important it is to enjoy what you do. While I think it was silly to do what he did I totally get why he did it.

What has been your least favorite job? Do you have an interesting "I quit!" story?

To-Do Tuesday 8-10-10

1. Prepare for interview Thursday
2. Get eyebrows threaded
3. Do nails
4. Put together references
5. Find interview outfit. 

Learning to grow by letting go

Something you may not know about me is that I am very big into horoscopes and fortune telling. I'm very sensitive when it comes to the paranormal and I find comfort in the stars.

I have been very stressed about my job situation, obviously, but now, I'm feeling a bit better. I read every horoscope I could find for the month, did a quick card reading for myself, and had some very telling dreams. Everything basically pointed in the following direction and if I had looked at it sooner I wouldn't have been caught so off gaurd....

August Horoscope 2010 - Sagittarius
For What it's Worth

Phase one of the great planetary transformation that started in the fall of 2008 is over, and now we're off on phase two. The onset of radical Uranus' opposition to strict Saturn came with the collapse of financial institutions that still has us reeling, as this aspect just ended last month. But now Jupiter and Pluto join the party to heat up rhetoric, cast thick fingers of blame or, hopefully, lead to real reform for individuals and organizations. On August 3, inflationary Jupiter's tense square to potent Pluto opens eyes wide to abuses and corruption. Yet, the individual work we face is to question our beliefs while recognizing that accommodating other points of view, even ones we hate, is a key to human survival.

Aggressive Mars joins with Jupiter and Pluto on August 4 to intensify emotions with feelings of urgency and an inclination to fight. But, as usual, the enemy is us; our fears and prejudices, anger and frustration are not meant to fuel fights against others, but to motivate individuals to clean up their own lives. If you're willing to make major changes in behavior, this is a great time to do it.

Courage and creativity are keys to pulling us out of the shadows, shining new lights of potential on our lives. The New Moon in expressive Leo on August 9 plants seeds of leadership in everyone. It is time to be heroic by acting with love and generosity when time, money or energy are in short supply. Tapping into the nobility in our hearts brings out the confident side of ourselves and increases our capacity to solve problems.
August 16 brings a reality check as pragmatic Saturn opposes hopeful Jupiter. It's time to take a good hard look at goals to see if they're off track or impossible to reach. Making adjustments to overcome short-term problems is worth the effort, so patience is recommended.

Mental Mercury turns retrograde on August 20, beginning its three-week backwards period when extra attention to details and communication is vital. Mix-ups with messages and difficulties with equipment and travel can be avoided by double checking details and tying up loose ends.

Sober Saturn's stressful 90-degree square to Pluto on August 21 reinforces the seriousness of these times and the necessity to recognize where holding on to a person, practice, job or attitude costs more than it's worth. Learning to grow by letting go isn't an easy lesson, but can be a very rewarding one.

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