Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Father's Day

This year several people I know lost their fathers to battles with cancer. Several friends and family lost their fathers to other causes throughout the year and many more in the years before this one. With so many poeple being without their father today, I was left with a feeling of sadness and an unwillingness to flaunt my fabulous father in their faces.

I did not want to put anything about Father’s Day in my facebook status, or on my twitter, I did not wish a general happy father’s day in my AIM away message, nor did I blog about it in my livejournal. I did not want to make the day any harder for those that were already having a hard day.

As the day went on however, I started feeling guilty. I felt like I was neglecting my dad by not telling the world how wonderful he is. I was standing in Walmart reading some Father’s Day cards when I just started to cry.

The truth is, I wasn’t avoiding talking about Father’s Day because I didn’t want to hurt anyone else, at least that wasn’t my entire motive, I didn’t want to talk about it, because it reminded me of my loved ones who did not have a father to celebrate with, and I became extremely anxious, sad, and frightened.

You see… I cannot fathom a world without my daddy in it. Typing that sentance alone has reduced me to tears.

He is my first love. My first experience with unconditional, unbridled affection. His strength has seen me through the darkest of times. Through break ups, sunburns, skinned knees, the death of loved ones, the loss of a treasured stuffed animal, the death of the family pet. He is my rock, my inspiration, he is always ready with a cup of tea. He is the reason I had faith that someone like William existed for me.

It would be wrong of me to ignore how important he is, to hide from how much I love him for fear of hurting others, for fear in general.

We must live for the moment, celebrate life while we have it, embrace every second before it’s too late.


This is me and my daddy at my wedding.

And these are the lyrics to the song we danced to at my wedding. I sobbed through the whole thing.

I Loved Her First lyrics

Look at the two of you dancing that way
Lost in the moment and each others face
So much in love you’re alone in this place
Like there’s nobody else in the world
I was enough for her not long ago
I was her number one
She told me so
And she still means the world to me
Just so you know
So be careful when you hold my girl
Time changes everything
Life must go on
And I’m not gonna stand in your way

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she’d find you someday
But it’s still hard to give her away
I loved her first

How could that beautiful woman with you
Be the same freckle face kid that I knew
The one that I read all those fairy tales to
And tucked into bed all those nights
And I knew the first time I saw you with her
It was only a matter of time

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she’d find you someday
But it’s still hard to give her away
I loved her first

From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
Someday you might know what I’m going through
When a miracle smiles up at you
I loved her first

Friday, May 29, 2009

We've Moved!

It's not that I don't love blogger, b/c I do.
But I'm bored and our old website is being taken down in a few weeks so I have moved our blog/website elsewhere.

We're Back!

Monday, March 30, 2009

Mmmm Year Old Cake

I can't believe how fast this year went by...
It's been a whole year since I married the love of my life.
I don't know who I'd be without him... I love him.

We spent the weekend in the Hamptons. It rained... we ran errands for work...we shopped. It was nice. I love getting to spend time with him, no matter what we're doing because his job takes him away from me 9 days a week if not more. (yes I know standard weeks are 7 days, but William doesn't work a normal 9-5 job so his weeks can be 2 - 18 days without a day off)

I never get to spend the weekends with him so this was just super special and I loved it.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Lord and Lady Hill

It’s a well known fact in our circle that William is my knight in shining armor, and I am his princess. Our love story is a perfect fairy tale complete with villans and fire breathing beasts. Our wedding was subtly themed with royal touches and our first dance started with the song “Storybook Love” from The Princess Bride.

When our anniversary approached I was at a complete loss as what to do for a gift. I had one idea that I was excited about but it fell through quite suddenly and I was left with nothing.

But, as they say, fairy tales always have a happy ending…

I came across a gift idea that fit so perfectly it was like losing the other gift was a blessing in disguise.

William and I are now the proud owners of a plot of land in the UK. A plot of land that entitles us to use the titles of Lord and Lady.

My sweet knight now has the nobel title he so rightly deserves.

Now to plan our trip to Scotland so we can go camping on our newly aquired estate!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Good Morning Blogosphere....

I never believe it when the weather man says we're gonna get a lot of snow. It always goes just east, just west, just south, or just north of us and we get maybe a few flurries. Never any accumulation...

So imagine my surprise and delight when I took Tango out for his morning piddle:

Tango did not share my enthusiasm.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Making Home

I've spent the better part of the morning/early afternoon in the kitchen.
I wasn't cooking.
Well, not food at least.

I spent the day making my apartment smell ... like home.
Or, at least it smells homey....

It's very dry in the apartment these days so we've got some (decorative) metal pots of water on our radiators. It's been helping a lot, and since they're painted pots they don't look (too) bad.

We've got a lot of pets, and while the apartment doesn't smell like a petting zoo, it doesn't always smell that fresh either.

My brother and his wife have the kind of house where you walk in, take a deep breath and go "ahhhh" and sort of sink into a warm kind of comfort that only scent can provide.

Whether they've got candles burning, reed difusers set around, air fresheners hidden in corners... it always smells amazing and i'm not sure how they do it. I'm actually quite jealous of this fact. They have a gorgeous house, a huge yard, a two level deck, a pool, and a hot tub in their master bath, but the thing that makes me green with envy is the way their home smells.

I can make my apartment smell great too, candles are easy enough, but with two cats and a crazy dog, i basically have to stare at the candle the whole time it's lit. Reed difusers are nice, but because of how dry it's been they don't last very long.

So... I took some scented oils (that you're supposed to put into an oil burner with some water, and then light a candle under it) and put a few drops in each of the pots on our heaters. Then I ate an orange and threw the peel in as well. Grabbed a handfull of cloves and dropped a few in here, and a dash of nutmeg there... and voila! my apartment smells like a home.

If we had a full stove/oven i'd actually use one of the pots and keep this concoction brewing on the stove every day, but since I don't, and I like to save money on my electric bill, and we've got pots of water on the heaters anyway... seems like a good plan to me.

If I can find some mint I think I'll throw that in one of the rooms too.

Friday, January 23, 2009

A Hill Family Christmas...

Well, William took down our Christmas tree this week.
Yes, most people will think we waited too long... but we don't wait because we're lazy... at least, that's not the only reason we waited... we just love Christmas. I love the tree, I love the decorations... and ...

well honestly it's the only time of year that ALL (okay, not all, but most) of my penguins get to be taken out of storage.

So... here is what our apartment looks like from Black Friday-Mid January.
face has been blurred to protect my friend's identity lol

the wraparound of the couch. (it's the top of my bunny's cage lol)

our dvd rack.

close up of the lights b/c they are adorable hehe

computer room wall #1

computer room wall #2
my mother in law made us those stockings.
the ornaments on the wall are all customized ornaments that my husband has given me as birthday presents over the years. they all have the year on them, and all but one of them have our names on them too.

all of our pets have their own stocking.
close up of top
our nativity scene
hubby's Christmas Story ornament collection and our nintendo collection as well

my Annalee collection that my husband and mother in law started for me last year

Bella and her advent calendar

OUR BATHROOM (We're remodeling the apartment so please ignore the primer and tape as well as the general mess)

our bathroom door.


Thursday, January 1, 2009

Cast of Characters:

William and I were married on March 28, 2008.

We have quite a few children, none of which are human.
All of them are rescues.

2 cats - Petey and Bella
1 dog - Tango Kilo Niner
1 bunny - Gozer RIP Gozer (this was quite a traumatizing event.)
1 budgie parakeet - McDuff
1 hamster - Flapjack RIP Flapjack

We currently work for the same company which can be interesting.

and this.... is our story.